moments of beginnings

ainayya mardhiyya

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by 4 i think, i said i just simply couldn't take the contractions anymore. i said, give me the painkiller.what ever to dull the pain..first the petadine, which had done nothing to me, then laughing gas, too didn't have any effect...wasn't laughing after inhaling the gas..:)... then by 4, i was given another drug, i forgot the nameof it.i fell asleep almost immediately...just the pain was unbearable....for an hour i slept, well it was kinda awaky sleep, half awake and half asleep.all my contrctions kinda vanished. mama was so worried how can contractions hilang camtu saje.hehehehe...

well baby's heartbeat was doing ok.after awhile, then i think durg to help contractions was given.so it was getting closer, every half a minute it came, each time was painful. then by back started to hurt.then uterus or cervix,then both. the doctor made VE again, with the contraction, she did VE, the sweeping lagi, sweeping is like clearing up the birth canal (maybe)to accelerate the birthing thingy.was so dissappointed that cervix was opened 7 cm. i was like please doc not now,until my contractions over then the VE.then doc Ishaireen came, she did VE,said, ok maryam i want u to hold on to your legs ad push... i was like, what now?i'm having the contractions...so tu la, was reading thru birthing process, wht u should do, how calm u must be, well, the practical part was... wayyyyyy different.unexpected ... i was like couldn't even differentiate between first contraction, second contraction, transition, third contraction didn't even feel it.

so, nayya was delivered with assistence of forceps. coz mommy was exhausted of screaming her lungs aout... wahahahaha.... i didn't know i had that voice like that...poor girl, she had marks on her left eye...

well, when nayya was firt put on me, i was, what a cute girl.so sweet.my feelings was i dunno.tired i guess.when they stitched me up, i didn't feel anything, just a feeling of lega aaa.... finally its over.

i went thru a total of 10 hrs of labour, not including the nite before..that was considered as kacang putih je

baby's name is ainayya mardhiyya.it means (my blessed beloved or buah hatiku yang diredhai)

well not everyone agreed with the name.what can i say. if follow everyone's wishes, then life would be just too complicated.dissappointed too, but ...

posted by Tuting Tome @ 1:19 PM