moments of beginnings

I WANT MY MOM!!!

she wants mommy only.

went to maksu's house last sunday. matuk made a kenduri arwah for our late grandpa & late tok nu & late khalanab & faisal. matuk said, today is 33 years after our tok's death.. hmm...
well, when we arrived, my grandma straight went after her, then everyone was immediately all over her.. she just got up from sleep. aaa, knowing nayya, she gets very blank & blur whenever she wakes up. its like there's a phase of sleeping while waking up. so, she would be looking at things blankly. but mind you, even in her groggy state she would reach for anything close to her.. heheh..

ok back to my story. so, she simply cried, & cried. then i took her for ashort moment, maknngah took her away from me, saying that, let your mama eat first. so, she, went crying even louder!! so, i had to gobbled up anything i can, as quickly as i could. then took her. aaa. she was so upset, that even when i took her, she'd still cry. took her away from all the ppl, went upstairs to emeel, ekhail & 'eif play room, she looked around, & cried, maybe in her mind 'this is not my house..uwaaaaa'

well, the day passed, then evening came, she was ok. makngah was upset saying that now nayya recognizes her as monster, coz she took nayya away from me. hehehe. but maksu just got to hold nayya for a long time.

now i noticed that she gets a bit moody during the day, but evening better, good mood, smiling & laughing away. mama said in homeopathy that's lycopodium behaviiour. so, she's back to square one, her first remedy was lycopodium...

btw, she's now in the 'perak' moment now. i-want-no-one-else-but-my-mom. then-only-i-can-smile-at-you.. ish ish.

posted by Tuting Tome @ 11:20 PM