burung gagak or harimau?
nothing much to say. just was having headaches these couple of days, a bit of flu.think today is much better.today, being sunday, i'd be like resting a lot. as if i haven't been doing that before this...
tomorrow would be a big day for me,or should i say for us. many things to do..going to the bank, to alor gajah for registration of papantanda for the new company, a meeting with the contractor... everything in the same day...like usual i want everything to be done within one day...
hmm, nayya is really using her 'big' voice whenever she's happy or sad or angry.. her nani said she sounds like burung gagak, her nana, on the other hand said she sounds like harimau... whatever it is,if she's upset, i would not end up trying to console her, but laugh first...bad mommy.
again...been trying to give her cereal.she just couldn't take any of it.one was with cow's milk,rice and carrots,some soy stuff...gave her, she developed rashes on her face, which went away after a couple of hours. the next day gave her just rice cereal with formula milk which had no soy compund in it (been thinking its the soy she's allergic to),still she developed the rashes.i just got a bit anxious on giving her my own cooked food, homemade stuff because of the incident that happened the last time.
so what's next? its like experimenting with your own baby..the thing is, am trying to feed her.seems like she's just like her parents..allergic to many stuff...
bad mommy, huhuhu
waa..nayya got stomachace yesterday..all because of mommy!!
i gave her barley.i read on the internet on how to make food for your baby. so genius mama followed the instructions, and add up the part where by she dry-fried the barley. the fire was a little bit too high,barley got burned a bit. asked the helper whether it was ok,she said it was ok... so being a genius, mommy just gave her baby the barley.
so the rest of the day nayya cried,went out, she cried going and coming slept for a few minutes, awake and cried.at night maghrib she threw up all the milk she had before that.
well after throwing up, she smiled..hmmm, that's how i got to know she had stomach upset...no more cries..then she slept, like a baby..heheheh, till morn, with her mommy who got a terrible headache, after she slept..the pressure and not eating well.
so today, no food for nayya, just my milk.she's ok now...experimenting with her 'big' voice!!
talking about that, nayya this week found her voice!! she cries now with her mouth big open, and huge voice... heheheh...experimenting, experimenting....
mommy and baby bushed!!
she's asleep.second day of food.during the day she was unable to sleep long enough like yesterday.maybe because i had to some business things in mt.it made her uncomfortable to sleep.now she's fast asleep.. poor nayya
well, i think she's allergic to the brown rice powder i gave her.i'll hsve to make it myself,grind them then, boil 'em.see whether she's still allergic to it.banana she's ok.
hmm,i think she wants to grow up fast!! coz when she's hungry for food, my food she would want to grab.hmm, a bit hyper today.couldn't stop wanting to suck anyone's hands.maybe its just because i've been kinda busy these past few days, i think this past 1 week been busy.
right now am feeling the pang of fatigue.my legs all hurt, back is aching.like i did a marathon or something.in the morn i woke up the feeling i want to sleep.but i must wake up coz she wants to wake up.so my day would begin her her.end with me, doing my work.
ah, well, i am rather bushed tonite.ooohh, everyone doakan dayat for his exam tomorrow.biar tenang,lancar dan mudah untuk die jawab... amin...
ohh, there's this arabic song, ainayya bahebbak...
her first solids!!
Her first soilds today!!
Brown rice...lunch banana.Didn't know only once for a beginning.heheh.
turns out, she loves it.she slept easier today.made more poo than usual.
aaa well....growing up she is....
pics..hmmm maybe aimi put it in her blog.maybe not.will aske from her tomorrow
she found out a few things today, her thumb,her feet, and this week her tongue,which she can do her 'bruuuu,bruuuu,bruuuu' till her face is full of her saliva.
today,i actually got a bit anxiuous,she just wouldn't want to sleep..5 mins then she started to wake up.putting her to sleep was not easy.. so to release me of the stress, i gobbled up a lotof food, a lot of calories, i'd say today..comfort food.
demo ne, i believe that i have been not eating well, and sleeping lesser and doing extra work, (oh i cooked lunch,extra speacial lunch,there was choc orange cheesecake too,for my mom,mom's day last sunday)..so everything added up, my blood glucose went a bit lower than usual and my tummy wasn't helping. plus i got headache couple days ago.voila...fatigue,stress...
ok, nayya ended up sleeping early today. at about 6.30 she was fast asleep only to wake up at 11 for milk,and goes back to sleep.
as for me, i had some time to do my work.now am tired... want to find something to munch, adding to the xtra2 calories i took today...heheheh
yersterday's photo (14/5/06)
she was in aimi's room and on the bed trying to eat her hand!!
coming to 4'th month of life
hmmm,weeks had passed...still no updates eh
a week more she would be 4 months old.i think she had gained weight, lose a bit of her chubbiness, and her baby rashes months...grown from 45 cm to 69 cm.
developments
nayya seems to improve on her grabbing technique.she can now grab my plate while i'm eating.she'd look at her 'bakul',touches it.i bought her an orange rattler,well she can now hold it,and she can put it into her mouth!!one time i saw her trying so hard to put it inside her mouth,every angle she tried, buat alas none can fit her mouth.another time,the rattler was beside her right cheek,she'd turn to it and tried to suck it.
this is a good one,a couple of nights ago,she went rolling on the bed.tiarap, telentang, tiarap, telentang. i had to roll off the bed to let her roll. hehehe..see she's not slow,she's just saying there are a lot of other things i have to learn, like doing the flying baby thingy... hehehe....if i hold her (dukung),she would lean her body to the front till, she's 90 degrees away, i.e.,upside down.she likes it that way.if sitting she would lean backward, so that she'd looking things upside down again..so i'd be holding her 6 kilos weight with one hand while the other typing hehehe, or doing something else...but when does her flying thing, i'd stop doing anything
then,the best thing she can do now is she can give me a very big laugh whenever i play with her..when i hear her laughter,my heart really melted..i think i have more than one heart,..because it doesn't happen just one time.:P
oh,well,she's growing up.i guess ppl would say before you know she'll be all grown up.
but alas,enjoy these moments...take one day at a time.at times, i do feel extreme fatigue.who says taking care of a baby is easy???but when layers of it goes away,all i can feel is strong love for her.like her name, she's my sweetheart.
ayang's version of flying..
aimi & nayya BSN melaka 5/5/06
naya and her 90 degrees somersoult!!
LCCT, anta ma gi bintulu
KLCC,14/4/06 & edited photos,courtesy of ayang
a reflection
complexity.
values
serenity
sounds,voices
sanity
sensitivity
emotions
physical
spiritual
stupidity
addiction
depression
innocence
guilt
joy
sad
mixed together.humans.mere creatures.with no strength to be on their own.weaklings whom needs and wants must be met,otherwise will perish.emotionally or physically.bound by laws,natural law.yet unbound by love,natural power.no control.none would have for they are not the one in control.
surrender then.
so much for some big idea...
what was on my mind lately?
for a week nayya showed me her crying voice.then for a week my days were hectic,trying to get her to bed or busy entertaining her.there were moments when i was thinking writing something in the blog or just scribble somewhere.that thoughts just went into my dreams,usually i would fall asleep before the words materializes.hehehe...
been travelling to kl last wednesday and klia friday.put us tired,both me and nayya.knowing nayya,she would be sleeping more when travelling, so whenever we come back home, she can sleep better..hehehe
oo, went to pd last sunday.it seemed nayya doesn't like sea air.she just screamed the minute we arrived.never seen her like that.
always,me don't like to put in pictures,coz one thing they are on this computer.that's not a good excuse coz can always get it from aimi.so, if wanna see pics see aimi's blog....or before this her ayah's blog.
well maybe just one pic..malasla..the computer lambat...hilang dah mood nak mencari gamba..heheheh....
tantrums
ahhh..my nayya has been showing her tantrums lately.i simply don't know what to do.
she's been crying a lot.and don't want to sleep.i have to sleep with her if i want her to sleep long enaf.
feelings..like i want to cry with her.i think she's missing her father,something's missing from her. i guess.
am tired.just wanna sleep.
