road
one road,
one road to the Heaven.
The heaven,
the heaven where one seeks,
the heaven where one does not eat,
nor drink,awake nor sleep.
The heaven where needs are
no longer needed to be fullfilled
for it has always been fullfilled.
The heaven where the heart
is contended with its love and joy.
For in the heaven all is promised
rewards ~ rewards ub abundance
abundance in not materialistic materials
but in materials one would not imagine
one road one seeks,
one road one needs,
one road one leads,
all roads to heaven one reaches.
how one would say
how one would pray
to Allah
I would say
gunakan masa,lapang sebelum sempit...
she's asleep.
i think these 3 days have been really hard on me.being her ayah away and my body still tired and i got headache,she has been really not sleeping during the day and very much 'clingy' to me.i put her to sleep.she'll sleep for about half an hour or just 15 mins.i simply couldn't do anything but to be with her.feeding takes longer than ever, she will suckle for 30mins to an hour or maybe more,coz if she terjaga she will want more.
i wanted to do my planning.but alas, only about now i can do.i even wanted to clean up my study table since ages.was about to do late this afternoon.now its between wanting to have a rest to clean up or to just sleep.
gone were the days when i can do stuff..ha, tu la, gunakan masa,lapang sebelum sempit.
timetable
now am trying to make a schedule with my baby and me.i would be working on my own and the timetable would be with my discipline,if not i would end up not doing anything, like yesterday and i think today.
boy my 'anak dara' berbulu,helwa has officailly approached her puberty.now she's in heat....really making loud noises.i never knew she-cats when in heat can be so obvious.i think my other she-cats were not like that.but then i was not involved with the other cats as am with this one.and naruto is just following her everywhere,maybe wanting to ease her pain, unfortunately she's just not interested with him...
ok nayya is uncomfortable now
ayah p cairo,nayya
waaaaaaaaaaaa....ayang dah p cairo balik.now its just the 2 of us.the thing is we were so busy finding stuff for him to bring and picking up ppl here n there, no time to really feel anything.. just pure tiredness at the end of each day,during the weekend,b4 he went.. all 3 of us.
after sending ayang,came back to mlk,bathe nayya..i mandi too,then she gave her sleepy tantrum..fed her and she slept,i slept..practically like the whole day.my body is aching just like i participated in a marathon or something.
aynag too said he was not feeling well in the flight.he just arrived in cairo...
we will survive this..all 3 of us...
battles
ahhh,the battles which i have to go thru all day long...
...waking up,bathe her.then comfort her,feed her,rock her to sleep.then breakfast...most of the times..after an hour or more.then my turn to take a bath,clean my room.by the time i'm finished with that,she's up again..so again change her diapers,comfort her,feed her.then its,lunch time.maybe she'd fallen asleep again,maybe not.these past 2-3 days she's been a bit restless and jumpy.so she kept waking up after i put her to sleep.how frustrating eh...
well the rest of the day is juggling with trying to comfort her and put her to sleep and feed her,with the stuff i need to do,like going places,do some surfing.etc.
my prayers all are always in betweens...only at nite after she's asleep, i pray isya' without having the feeling she would wake up soon or i just go to sleep with her.only to wake up again in the midst of nite.hahahaa..how typical of me.but its just tonite,after my isya',i have this feeling,that i should make it a point that i'd do my prayers in a more relaxed way...let it all go for awhile,not rushing things like usual...then only i can be calmer.after all praying is the time for one to umwind oneself from the 'material world'.heheheh my term.and each waktu has its meanings and when that waktu is over,its like the beginning of the next episode will begin...
hahahaha...
3 months infant
The third month
By the third month, you and your baby probably will have established a daily routine of feeding, sleeping, diaper changing and playing. The process may not have been easy, but you're both starting to reap the rewards. As each day passes, your baby's distinct personality traits begin to shine through more and more. By 12 weeks of age, babies can:
* Express affection. Your baby will begin to reach for you when he or she needs attention, and snuggle in your arms for security and happiness.
* Play independently. An infant at 3 months can, with minimal parental involvement, play for as long 10 or 15 minutes at a time. An interesting sight or sound easily distracts an infant this age from almost anything — even nursing. Three-month-old babies spend time staring at things — pictures, mobiles, their own hands.
* Move with purpose. At this age, babies' neck muscles are strong enough to support their heads independently for a second or two. Although they can't roll over yet, they are getting close by turning from side to back. Also, if you set a toy in front of your baby, he or she will grasp it and hold onto it for a few moments.
* Speak their own language. By this time, your baby coos constantly, making more noises and sounds every day. When you talk to your baby close-up, wait for a vocal or body response. Even when you don't talk one-on-one, your baby still enjoys hearing your voice from across the room.
http://www.cnn.com/HEALTH/library/PR/00061.html
PC Fair
last saturday went to Pc fair with nayya,hubby and hilmi.
what i can say is,it was horrible.ppl were like semut..literally semut!!! rite from klcc shopping centre to the convention centre and the exit.i was going crazy...just imagine how nayya was feeling.she couldn't sleep at all thruout the 5 hrs 'trip' in the fair.
first i was like ok,maybe we can do this.i was sitting at the skirts of gerai2..thankfully there were these extra spaces with carpet on.so i waited for hubby and hilmi to buyy ma's laptop.that was the first hall.but then there 5 halls!! and all the halls must be passed thru,before the exit.hahahaha..just imagine my nitemare. i was holding nayya and rushing thru out the rest of the halls, avoiding the semut ppl.sakit tangan, kaki.but was not even thinking.ok that was on saturday.
on sunday, we decided to go to klcc again,ma wanted to go to the fair lak.i said am not going, we were just gonna be in the shoppping complex.i wanted to buy some stuff.again ended up my being supermom!!!first we were going thru the shops, then relaxed in the mom's room, gave her milk.then continued searching laagi.then,ate lunch.she slept.then afterthat she woke up and started crying,that was when i became supermom.this time my kaki sakit camne pun lupe langsung.all i could think of was to bring nayya to the car and comfort her.so ma kene tinggal kat toilet,hilmi was searching for ma.me, hubby and nayya was in the car and there were no signal for hp.hahahaha... just imagine the chaos we were in..and everyone was tired....
The Forgotten Lessons
The Forgotten Lessons
rocket
see told ya she would just know am on the com...put her to sleep,10 mins later she's up.now she's on my lap.
this morn, like usual, she woke me up.then checked on her diaper..jeng-jeng,guess what happened? she made a 'rocket poo'!! so i got poo all over me and on the bed.baru je tuka bedsheet...ended up mama die mandi awl...good thing la.
tiarap?
hahaha... just now nayya tried to turn from lying on her back to her tummy..she has been trying to do so for the past 1-2 weeks..only today i noticed there's an improvement.so i helped her.... hehehehe.. the mommy thingy... always want to help your child,kesian....
well,the really funny thing is that,she turned herself back to lying on her back!!now tht's something...was thinking she should be doing the other way not from meniarap to baring.
really, am teaching her to sit in front of the computer, she seemed to know everytime i want to use it.i have no choice but to put her on my lap, sitting apparently she loves it,either fascinated by the screen or me typing.
ok now she's getting restless.. she's cring her single cries now.hehehe...
road to Allah
am very sleepy at the moment.eyes are half open..
to know oneself will make him or her know Allah.to love onself makes the road to Allah even shorter.to serve Allah,one must serve people.
always the answer to one's question when it matters about life or just merely secrets of happiness is to look around and appreaciate and love them.it is not difficult to do.however road to understanding this maybe tough to some or even one may not see at all.
funny, i come to realise them after many things happened to me.always,in my heart i had known them to be true, yet to accept these things as true took me some time...still i'm walking on His path.not knowing what will happen in the future, and putting my faith in Him.hope for the best..insya-Allah.
medAN PIcs
medan event...
block
there is a block in me that whenver i want to spill out my thoughts after thinking or maybe just had a eureka about it, it just disappeared.used to be i can just simply sit down with a pen and made poems just like that.but now...it wont happen....
mAybe its because i had not been reading anything lately.but at the same time i have this feeling in me,that there's so much more for me to learn that my thoughts should be put aside first so that i'd learn even more..and get the message even better.life is not always about oneself...its about others too.understanding,knowing and learning..
oh well,its past midnite..i should better get some sleep before my baby wakes up...
poo lover....
been wanting to write this in blog for almost a week now....
just thinking how ironic it is that once thinking of someone else's poo was really out of mind, eer...gross.now that i have nayya, her poo means so much to me.she was having tummy ache and didn't poo for 2 days.i was so anxious, so much so on day 3 she pooed i was looking at her poo for a long time,happy.and after that everytime she pooed i calculated how much.well i did get the habit since she had her joundice.the color of her poo should be green first then yellow.her urine should be not greenish...
but when there is a necessity to change your perception over some things...it just changes.
yeah by the way today she hasn't poo that much,like usually she'd poo.she's not comfortable with herself today.cried a lot...or should i say rengek.my baby doesn't cry a lot,she just screamed herself a bit.a very secure baby i'd say....
